“I Miss My Daddy”

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There are so many moments that Teddy and I look at each other and know how blessed we are to have the family we have now, and that is always what we ultimately look to. But sometimes it’s hard. Raising our girls to the best we can control in our own home and environment, and then letting them go to another parent, that we know loves them, but we can’t control what they are going to do, or feel, or learn while they’re away from us.

The words “I miss my daddy”, might mean something different for so many people.  For me they are words that I dread and yet am happy my 3 and a half year old daughter speaks.  The other day she said those words “I miss my daddy” while sitting at the table to eat her lunch.  After consoling her a bit, I realize she doesn’t think she’s going to see him for a long time.  For her daddy is the guy she goes and sees every now and then, that she seems to have fun with, and then she comes back home to her mommy family with me and Teddy and her eight year old ‘sissy'(if sissy isn’t staying with her other mom).  

It’s a hard conversation trying to comfort my child when she misses her daddy.  And trying to be the most positive Continue reading

Happiness In The Chaos

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The entire family at our wedding! Amazing that we got everyone in this photo!

Talk about a whirlwind!  In the past three months I have gotten engaged, planned a beautiful farm wedding, gotten married, rented out my house, moved and merged our new family into Teddy’s house, rented out his house, moved into our new house, and now ending my job at the end of the month because it’s going out of business.

Man.. just typing all that makes me feel better about how crazy I’ve been.  I’d love to say that I’ve been the perfect example Continue reading

My New Story

My story is one of a growing girl that finds her way through some winding paths, falls into a valley, comes to a cliff that she must take courage, strength, and endurance to climb above, and in the midst of that climbing has her world changed through family, friends, and love.

Let me start with where my life is now.. I’m a mom to my oh so sweet and strong willed 3 1/2 year old Liza, a newly wed to my amazing, knight and shining armor Teddy, and step mom to my super awesome 8 year old Lillie. We are in the middle of it all with moving in together, buying a new home just to move it all again, and figuring out how to blend our two families into one. And even with the overload of all of this, we are loving every minute of this blessed life we get to share together now as a family.

Taking a step back .. let me give you a short view into my past. From a very young age I have been a believer in God, and a woman of faith. But during my first marriage I let that passion and faith be pulled away from me, and after 13 years of what I thought was a happily secure marriage my life was shaken. I was 4 months pregnant when I realized the vows he had made to me so long ago were being broken. After fighting with dignity and everything I could to save my marriage, my sweet Liza Francine was born and 1 month later divorce was underway. My only hope was to turn to God and to my family.

I mean, talk about amazing family.. my parents parked their RV in my driveway for almost a year and a half when Liza was born to care for her (and me) while I went back to work with all my crazy retail hours. You know that saying that ‘God can turn a mess into something beautiful’.. well he did that with me. About a year after all the mess, I was able to quit my job, and rely on God’s provisions, thankfully provided to me through some amazing people and family that loved me and wanted to bless Liza and me, with some precious time while she was a baby. Part of this involved one of my sisters moving to Nashville with her family to start a farm and take me in under their roof while I processed and tried to recoup from it all.

As time passed on the farm, I grew a lot in knowing myself better in spirit, mind, and body. I know that sounds kind of cliche.. but it’s true. And when God knew I was ready, and only God knew, cause I had no idea it was coming.. God placed a man in my life. We met and began our, what seemed like, teenage romance.. seriously.. every time his name showed up on my phone I would get the most quirky little smile on my face. Navigating through a new dating relationship with us both having daughters of our own was not the easiest, I started a new job as well, started Liza in daycare, and moved out of the farm. But luckily he and I both knew what each was going through, and it wasn’t long before I fell in love with him and his amazing daughter.

I’m so thankful for that cliff God put in my way.. and really all the paths i’ve had to wind through. I know there are so many others out there facing these cliffs as well. My writing has always been my therapy.. but my hope through this blog is to somehow form a community to allow women to know that there are others going through the same challenges. Whether single, married, mom, step mom, single mom.. I hope to provide encouragement along with fun and laughs along the way.wedding-11

A Tickle Can Change the World!

IMG_4916Time is so important to us, isn’t it?? It is limited and precious, and it passes by and we can’t get it back.. no wonder our kids thrive on getting those precious moments with us. I had this revelation today with Liza.  We had a long night last night with her waking up at one in the morning wide awake, hungry, and ready to go.. and it wasn’t until two hours later that she finally fell back asleep. So, of course when morning came back around I was super tired and she was kinda cranky, and the last thing I wanted to do was entertain her.  Well, as the morning progressed, with some nick jr and disney, things began to go downhill.  Lately, she’s been acting more rebellious with screaming, saying no to me, and throwing fits.. of course I credit this towards her turning two last month. So more time outs have to keep happening.  But this morning was the ultimate.. let’s just say she was in time out for about 30 minutes straight.  She would not tell me she was sorry for yelling at me.. and continued to scream at me every time I tried to talk with her about it.  My sister Mitsi came home from dropping the kids at school and just looked at me with such pitty and gave me a hug.  Sometimes a mom just needs a hug, huh?!  Well.. eventually Liza finally decided to say sorry after I carried her to her bed kicking and screaming and told her she was going to have to sleep this off, which is not normally a route I would take but I was desperate.  So, she came back out of timeout and Mitsi began playing a tickle her tummy game, chasing her around the house and doing some hide and seek along with it.  Liza lit up with excitement and joy.  It was amazing to watch and see how a little tickle and hide and seek time could bring such joy and really change her entire attitude.  And being such an amazing sister, Mitsi took Liza to the store with her to get her out for a bit. This not only changed Liza’s attitude even more it helped with mine as well.  Liza came back happy, I was a little refreshed, we had some Dr. Liza time and then a little dance party.  The rest of the morning went a lot smoother without any rebellion even when I told her no to having a sucker and asking her to eat more bites of lunch.  She even went straight up the stairs to her bed when I told her it was nap time. Now, I’m not saying that a little tickle time can solve all problems.  But I see what I see and so far, spending that quality time is the best diagnosis I have found with all the kids in the house for changing behaviors. Sometimes they just need us to take some of that time that is so precious to us and spend it on them. We played a family baseball game one day after school for maybe 30 minutes and it was just amazing how the rest of the evening with chores and dinner and just the way they all interacted together was so much smoother. Mitsi and I had been busy doing a lot of house stuff which we all get caught up in and we just forget that we just need to take a moment and have some fun with the kiddos.  It not only helps them but it helps us too.. we have fun! Remembering and getting that glimpse again of what it’s like to be free spirited as a kid, throwing, running, laughing, dancing, silliness. It just feels good! I mean, when you think about it, we all kinda want someone to take their precious time and spend it with us, right?! From parents to friends, husband and wife, boyfriend and girlfriend there is just nothing like spending that quality time, not just sitting together, but actually doing something together. I have no study or research to share with you on how this works but I have plenty of life experience to see and believe the truth in it all. So my prescription for those of you that feel like you may be in a slump, whether in your relationship, with friends, or with your kids.. get off the couch, or out of the kitchen, put the broom down, cancel that meeting, and go play! See what that one precious moment of time can do!

Need some help on getting that brain back into play mode?? Throw or kick a ball around Play hide and seek Play a game of freeze tag Climb a tree Play in the leaves Do cartwheels Raining outside?? Turn the tv off, put some fun music on and have a dance party and add some balloons in! Do a craft project and let it get messy Play doctor or kitchen or dress up Bake cookies and let the kids decorate them The options are endless.. and you’ll be amazed at how you will remember how to play if you just start doing it!

Liza’s Baby Room

Crib and Vintage children's records

Crib and Vintage children’s records

Liza’s room was inspired by vintage children’s records found in a thrift store.  From there it turned into such an amazing, whimsical, vintage storybook kind of place. My sister being the amazing crafter she is made me some pillows and the rocking chair cover, along with the little cloth flower pins with all mix-matchy vintage looking patterns.  The Robins egg blue walls acted as a great neutral background like sky Continue reading

Alone on the Beach

It’s a whole new experience being a mom on the beach, and I’m just gonna put it out there.. a whole new experience as a single mom on the beach.
I’m sure it gets easier as they get older but with an 18 month old.. Fun.. but not so easy. Liza did not respond to the pool so much but when we went down to the beach her eyes lit up and she started squeeling and squirming to get out of my arms. She got her feet on that sand and wiggled her little toes in it and took off towards the waves! Oh she was so cute running into those waves for her first time and she just giggled her little chuckling laugh.
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That in itself makes this whole trip so amazing. Continue reading